Rantings of a Queer Pagan

Wow to the world

I'm writing this blog entry on my palm, using my palm ultra thin keyboard, which I must admit, is pretty cool. The only problem I have with it really is that it's not egrononmic, otherwise it feels just like a basic QWERTY keyboard, mostly.... maybe more like a Mac keyboard, as the key spacing is a little compressed. Still, there is no way I could have written all the above using graffiti and the virtual on-screen keyboard in this time. Up until this point I've primarily used my palm for data retrieval and very little data entry, this should change. I intend on using this to takes not in class using documents to go Word To Go app so I can import and edit all my notes in word on my pc easily enough. We'll see how that goes.

So, what's new with Kasper you ask? Well a lot actually. I officially past the burnt out stage a few weeks ago and arrived and the smoldering mess stage of my life. I started slacking off at Telus, though interestingly enough the more apathy I had, the better my stats were, and started skipping classes. Yes mom, skipping classes, save the lectures, I've gotten then from everyone including myself. Therefore, I'm way behind. All my profs love me though and are confident that I can I turn around my marks if I start showing up. My English prof. said there's no reason why I can't still ace her course as there's no problem with my writing skills and my Chinese prof. thinks I can do the same. Pysch. and Computers aren't a problem at this point, as I've done well anyway, and rarely show up for my Introduction to computers lectures anyway. So school, while I seriously contemplated abandoning it altogether, is a priority once again, after all, there is only six weeks left. I can survive that.

Telus on the other hand, well, I'm not longer a Telus employee. I could bad mouth them and reveal all the ethical questions I have about managements operations and directives, and I could defend why I was fired and why even the union thinks how it went down is a load of crap, but I won't. I'm done there. Thank God. I really enjoyed the guys I worked with, and intend fully to keep in touch with a lot of them, but other than that, what's done is done. Telus was becoming a priority in my life, in fact, my manager had demanded it, but that wasn't the original deal, and I forgot that.

It was important for me to get a job there, in a sense, it was more than a job, and it was vindication and validation. I've always believed that I could cut it in the IT industry with no formal training, but based purely on my experience and passion for it, and I was right. I was hired along with a group of guys who had more experience and education than I thought I'd ever be lumped in with. That meant a lot to me. I even spent a lot of my time at Telus in a leadership role by being the guy my classmates turned to, not to say we didn't help each other out, I sure learned a lot from them, but was always honored when they would ask ME questions. So for me, the fact that I lost the job doesn't really bother me, I feel like I've proved my mettle to myself and my family, and my friends, and anyone who's ever questioned my approach to IT. I've had the goal of being with Telus since high school. I did it; I got in with the second largest telecom in Canada, in a highly competitive market place. I feel validated, and that means a lot. Now I can close that chapter of my life and focus on my social work career plan, if that's where I end up.

I will probably always be the computer guy to many people, I'm sure for a long period I'll still maintain a client base, but it's not important to me now. I no longer have anything to prove. I was a Telus employee, I reached that goal, and that's good enough. I never really cared about maintaining employment with them, but gaining it, that was the stamp of approval I needed. Now it's done, next chapter.

posted by Kasper @ 23:08