Rantings of a Queer Pagan

Who cares what mom thinks?

"We don't need another hero, we don't need to know the world, all we want is what we got..." - Tina Turner.

Are you a Tina Fan, I am. In fact, I just bought her greatest hits album off of Allformp3.com (Russian site). Got love her, what a woman, what a voice. "All the children say..." Sorry, I'm listening to her wail on iTunes right now. Wow. Anyway.

Speaking of iTunes, have you heard of podcasts? I've grown addicted to them in the last few days. Basically radio shows from all over the world you can download and take with you on your iPod, like the iPod shuffle I got last month. In my defence, I didn't buy it, it was free with my subscription to Audible.com (audio books) which came with as a free trial when I got my new Palm, a Tungsten 5. I didn't pay for that either, I got it for beta testing an e-mail program, plus $100us. Life's rough eh? So, podcasts, great things, check them out, there are thousands, tech, politics, religion, music you name it. A few of my favorites are Brain Brew (www.brainbrewradio.com), Radio Leo (check iTunes) and ChinesePod.com. Chinese Pod is a great way to learn mandarin, 10 minutes a day is all it takes. I really enjoy my iPod, seeing as I spend half my day in my truck, it's cool to take radio shows I like with me, as opposed to listening to the same stuff over and over and over and over and over and...

I haven't been blogging the last while. I think it's mostly because I know mom subscribes to the e-mail notification. Self censorship and all that. So screw it. I love you mom, but I'm not gonna watch my tongue or censor my thoughts (not that you asked me too), and that goes for the rest of you who read. I need the therapeutic value of this back. So there.

I just realized, having every Enya Album is a lot of Enya. My god, a lot of this sounds the same. Still good... most of it.

I've spent the last few days cleaning out my office. My office is often a reflection of my mental state, the more disorganized it is, the worse off I am. It's now possible to sit on my couch (not lie on it though, maybe in a day or two.) Work's been hectic, but thankfully I'm blessed with clients who are small businesses them selves and 1. appreciate my work, 2. understand the stress I'm going through and 3. are very forgiving. I've screwed up a lot this month. In fact, business wise, October was month of the fuck up for me. But I survived, I have this awesome coach. Absolutely invaluable, keeps me motivated, kicks my ass, and cheers me on when I can't for the life of me imagine why I would want to get out of bed. That's why I'm marrying him.

There's a real challenge to this business, it's getting harder. Not that the work is harder, but it's when things go wrong, and I have to fix them, be creative about it, or expect it. There are common things that users do that I generally have to go back and fix, I'm trying to document these things so I can build them into my procedures or leave a tip sheet behind. Seeing as I guarantee my work it costs me when I have to go back. I don't mind though, I'm working out the kinks, but the last week, there's been a lot of kinks, and very few challenges. There was this one spyware that I encountered today that none of my tools could detect, but I managed to track it down, the ingenious little bugger. Got rid of it, those are the challenges I like. Trying to calm down upset customers, not so much fun. However, most of them are understanding, and they appreciate my commitment to come back and generally refer me. I've been sending bouquets to those who refer me to their friends and such, got a big bill from the florist the other day. It's worth it though.

There's been a lot going on in the last two weeks, I'm not going to try and go back over it all, but it's been interesting, and keeping me going. I'll try to debrief more often.

Now be gone.

posted by Kasper @ 01:17